Sick o' self

Self is the epitome of my troubles' tears
The center molten core of my darkest fears
The repulsive nature of my youth daunts my very logic
And yet still I refuse to do something about it

I have the power
This I know
For the Bible tells me so
But my willing heart does what it wills and stands as a stumbling block in the way of destiny

Die, flesh, die!

Gain green sin eats away at my soul and I need to just...
Surrender...
Perfect love casts out all fear but I think I'm just lazy and immature to be consistent
Consistency requires experience and blood-mingled failures to be produced
With Christ as my rain and experience as my soil, I shall overcome
I haven't heard the last of me

Trust and Obey

Have you ever had a song in your heart to sing but couldn't remember all the words?? Well, I did! Lol this old hymn that was written, like, over a century ago called "Trust and Obey" speaks to ny heart so at this time in my life. I've sang this song countless times in my youth but it has NEVER meant anything to me until now! I praise God for this song because the lyrics lift my spirit soo much! It encourages me and helps rememeber the truth of th matter is alwyas the same regardless of the situation, the peopl involved, the time of year or the emotional rollercoaster that I may be going through. This song reminds me of the stability and consistency I have in Christ so of course, I decided to post it. Enjoy!

Trust and Obey
Hymn Writer ~ John H. Sammis, 1846-1919

Hymn Music ~ Daniel B. Towner, 1850-1919

Stanza 1:

When we walk with the Lord

In the light of His word,

What a glory He sheds on our way!

While we do His good will,

He abides with us still,

And with all who will trust and obey.

Refrain:

Trust and obey, for there's no other way

To be happy in Jesus, but to trust and obey.

Stanza 2:

Not a burden we bear,

Not a sorrow we share,

But our toil He doth richly repay;

Not a grief or a loss,

Not a frown or a cross,

But is blest if we trust and obey.

(Refrain)

Stanza 3:

But we never can prove

The delights of His love

Until all on the altar we lay;

For the favor He shows,

For the joy He bestows,

Are for them who will trust and obey.

(Refrain)

Stanza 4:

Then in fellowship sweet

We will sit at His feet,

Or we'll walk by His side in the way;

What He says we will do,

Where He sends we will go;

Never fear, only trust and obey.

(Refrain)

Freedom and Attack go hand in hand

Hiiiiiiiii! Jesus rocks!!! I finally surrendered a struggle over to Him last night and this struggle is one the root of actions that crippled everything within me that destroyed my ability to truly trust someone, God included. Everyone has been aquainted with this struggle at least once in their lifetime. What is this struggle? It is:

lonliness

If I had written this post even just yesterday, I would have written lonliness as such:

LONLINESS

That's how much control I was once under; to allow the spirit of lonliness to corrupt the mind, actions, emotions, relationships and love that God has given me is unacceptable. He said in His word that I am: more than a conqueror, fearfully and wonderfully made, predestined for a divine purpose, a joint heir with Christ, powerful. I give God the glory becasue I am free! I give God praise that I am what He says I am and nothing else! I give God paise that no matter what happens, He will never leave me nor forsake me. I just have one more reason to love and serve Him in spirit and in truth. No more excuses, no more self-pity and no more diminishing God's LOVE that He literally shed from His body for me!!! I SHALL walk in my deliverance and I SHALL possess the land that God has destined me to inherit before the world began.

~Victory

Dancing In The Air

We often walk through life with this feeling; it's a feeling that weighs down the mind, body and soul. It is the sum manifestation of our worst fears and lost dreams. It causes me, in particular, to loose form. And yet...I am a soldier. I walk then run, then I pant and walk some more. But eventually I come to a point where I can't anymore. I just can't. My lungs give way and I depend on me too much. I often walk through life with doubt tied to my feet. I can't dance but now...I am determined to do so. I want to dance in the air like an eagle whether rain or shine or calm or storm. I don't just want to run but I want to do it gracefully and thankfully. Jesus...He gives me the opportunity each day to dance in the air. If I don't then it's because I haven't leaned on His everlasting arm. I choose to dance. I want to dance, I was designed to dance, therefore I shall indeed dance. I will step forward into His hand and dance all the way to everlasting. This is what I was made to do.

What's in a name...

Ok...so here's the skinny: I thought I named the relationship I had with a young man properly; I thought that I was in the right frame of mind. But guess what, I WASN'T! Lol It's so crrrrazy to me how I was caught up in self-righteousness and that I allowed me to blind myself. To find myself three steps behind where i thought I was was....compelling. I had so much joy and I realized that regardless of what my mouth may say in lying about what I go through or whatever I do, my heart and mind both know the truth. The truth was that this man was my boo in my heart as much as I 100% refused to believe it not nearly admit it. I love Jesus for His revelation. It pushed me to do what He's been pulling me to do for about a year now: bear my cross. I thank Him because He will guide me! I praise Him because He is worthy and I love Him because He loves me!! So what's in a name? The answer is---------EVRYTHING!!!

9/13/08 My Passion

My Passion
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My heart It is eyes that watch you bandage my every wound
My soul It is the ears that hear your loving grace keeping my life in tune My mind It is the brown hands that lift and stretch freely towards your life
Nothing has ever been so clear
Never have I experienced such fearless fear
The fear of You
The awe of You
I close my two eyes as my lips curl into a smile of gratitude
I thank You for clarity
Thank You for loving past my humanity
My past
My pain
My vices and chains
My feet are the thoughts that You use to guide me
My tongue is the weapon that You've given to fight the enemy
Overcoming
Over conquering
Over stepping tactics in the spirit realm
My belly is the molten lava that spews me into liberty
Now I can see
The scales have fallen
Now I can really see
You are my passion
My faith
My hope
My love
God... You are my everything

~Sarae